Oh the joy in problems

I have a problem!

 

I do not enjoy reading when I am told I have to. So Serve God Save the Planet was good and all. Well everything I read of it, but I just get to a point around chapter 10 that I feel bored or frustrated. ‘Why do I have to read this?’ ‘I know there are a lot of great points, but let me choose when I want to jump in and learn to hang dry my clothes or get rid of my dog.” I wish I could sit here, well stand I guess and tell you all the great things I enjoyed about the book I read, but I can’t. It just so happened that I was simply taken over by another book that has forever changed my view on my father. No not my dad, but God. As I read each page I could feel my soul breaking free from the lies its been told my whole life. I felt the distant, punisher of a God become tangible and compassionate. I felt Jesus next to me, holding me, helping me lift the heavy load to the dumpster. I have begun to feel the Holy Spirit breath life into my deflated lungs.

 

I have been FREED!

 

What joy I have knowing that in my life I will never be alone. I have never been alone. I will never disappoint my God. You will never disappoint our God, our Father, and our savior.

 

Amen

 

 

Becoming a Rez dog!

Emery loves the outdoors, the rez and all his pals. 

Even though he does get pokies stuck in his paws when he runs in the grass.

 He still Loves every moment. 

Emery loves the Rez! He has been having an amazing time living in community and meeting some buddies. 

He loves playing outside with Socks! Sometimes they chase each other, other times they bite, but most of the time they just hang out.

His other buddy, yellow snow loves to share Emery's water bowl. We have great friends where we live and great dogs. Emery fits right in!

we headed back to minneapolis today. It sure was one long car ride. 

I woke up around 3am feeling very under the weather. I could not fall back to sleep, so after tossing and turning for 3 hours we decided to hit the road. 

Not being able to drive,  I rested my head on the window and dozed off. I woke every once in a while to make sure Jake was still awake and keeping us on the road. Finally we have arrived. 9 hours later, a doctors appointment and the return to maxwells, my night is finally complete. 

I have been having a wonderful time in Pine Ridge! It really is beautiful there. It seems that the sky goes on forever. 

We are lucky to have so much in life. blessed. There is joy in having less. Finding the balance is where the difficulty is. 

we have arrived!

And then there were Two...

Two days,

Jake and I are leaving in two days. I can't believe it is finally here. The house is looking cleaner, the boxes are being packed and goodbyes are being said. Now its time to relax and take it all in. We will be living on a reservation, with one market a gas station a Taco Johns, you dare not eat at and of course a Pizza Hut. Were not sure what the winters will be like. We don't even know what the plow situation is like there. Hopefully they have them. 

Mostly we are just excited to get out and experience something new. An adventure. 

Where is my motivation hiding?

As you know Jake and I are moving... in LESS then two weeks. I have so much to do and instead i am sitting on my couch thinking 'boy i should really be doing something other than blogging.' Not to mention we are hosting a yard sale tomorrow and i just started going through everything. I know that i work best under pressure, but this is getting down to the wire. I went to the doctor today due to some dizziness, perhaps because i can not walk in a straight line in my home. He asked me if i am under any stress. 

What kind of question is that. I don't consider myself a stressful person, but if their is a time to be a little stressed perhaps its now. Up until about 3 weeks ago i have never used a planner and now its full, let me know if i need to pencil you in for anything. I am unemployed and busier then ever. My house is clean for about an hour then somehow life happens and creates a disaster. I have junk everywhere (OK not junk! Valuable stuff that will be sold at the yard sale.) I feel like i have more to do at this moment in my life than i did when i got married. Maybe that's because i really didn't do much for my wedding. I know that every moment of stress is worth it. Every thought of 'I cant believe we are doing this' is a thought worth having. Every moment of joy held now will surely be multiplied when serving others. Life is worth living! Even the moments that might just feel worthless. 

once upon a wedding...

Well Jake and I photographed our first wedding!

It was wonderful, and fun to work with Jake. 

Taking photos has always been a passion of mine.

I love to capturing the amazing moments in life.

Hopefully when we return from SD I will in roll in a photography 

program to pursue my passion.  i am sure you will see more!