An update in photos...

It has been awhile from my last post, so I figured why not post today. As I drove to pick Jake up from work yesterday on 36th Ave S, I was reminded of my love for Fall. I am sure there are more beautiful streets to drive down, but at that moment I was surrounded by beautifully colored trees of amber and orange, red and yellow glimmering brightly in the afternoon sun and I couldn't imagine anywhere more amazing. Then I realized that soon fall would come to an end and quickly prayed that God would give me something about Winter that I could love.

Anyways... I wanted to post a few photos to show what the Ladd family has been up to.

 Family photo after a day of fun!

 Jake and I went to see Wicked. It was amazing!!

 Nash riding his tractor at Grandma and Grandpa Ladds.

 I was able to watch Nolan for a day, they had some good times.

 We went for a burley ride to the park. I love the look Nash is giving here.

 Riding the Bee.

 Nash Loves naked rocking... Not sure who he learned that from??

 He also loves to see what small spaces he can fit into.

 We spent an evening at MOA with the Ladds.

 Nash with his cousins, Micah, Ashley, and Emily. Oh and Dora and Diego.

On the way home. You can really see his black eye here. Now that he walks, he also has pretty nashty falls.

Thank God

It has been a while from my last posting. Jake, Nash and I moved into our new apartment and are still getting settled in. Somewhere between moving in and today I have realized that I have become a not so desirable person. My attitude resembles that of a "debbie downer", I am easily angered and less then a patient wife and mother. So I have had to take a good hard look at myself in the mirror and find out what the heck is going on.

I have not devoted any of my time to growth, to challenges, and to gaining of wisdom. I am merely a girl holding on by a string, living just to get by. I know that through my lifetime I have had these moments, but for some reason this time it seems even more painful. I believe that I am better then this moment, that I have faith, hope and experiences that should have kept me from this. That even though things may seem tough I could have persevered, taken the high road, or at least stayed focused on God. Yet I fell apart, became a spirit filled with bitterness and frustration.
So...

Thank GOD, for never leaving me when I left him. Thank God, for showing up in my everyday even when I ignored His presence. Thank God for the memories of those who helped mold me into a better person. Thank God, for redoes.  Thank God, for giving me a husband who sees beyond my darkness. Thank God.

"Don't worry about a thing..."

Jake and I started the moving process today, and it was pretty exciting. Yet there was a part of me that felt unsure. I feel that this choice has brought me to a place where I must learn to trust in and on God. Jake and I have not lived alone together for 3 years. So this is a big deal for us, to have a chance to be a little family again. Although I am excited, there is a part of my that worries. I worry about the loss of community, the ability to afford living on our own, how we will connect being just us. Then I am reminded that I must always remember that God is in control. That He cares about what I feel and am going through. My thoughts must always be directed to Him first. Then when I begin to loose faith I hear God whispering this sweet melody...

Don't worry about a thing, cause every little thing is gonna be alright.


July 16th... a helpful reminder

where did the time go?

On July 7th 2010 Nash Ladd turned 1. I could hardly believe how fast the one year mark came rolling around. It truly is amazing to look back and see how far Nash has come. He reminds me daily that there is beauty in the world. Every moment he surprises me with a new skill or word I hadn't seen or heard before. I am filled with LOVE for my family. I am so thankful God has given me this opportunity to learn and be humbled by life. Thank you Lord for trusting me, may I always look for guidance and peace with Nash. 

Here are a few shots from July 9th, when Jake and I took Nash to the park to celebrate one year of life. 

On the search...

Well I am on the search... for a job that is, and after reading this Yahoo headline I might have a tough time.

Out-of-work job applicants told unemployed need not apply!

So I am a bit confused, should I add the last year of being a stay at home mom to my resume? Then I don't look like a lazy bum who just sits on the couch all day and looks for jobs. Oh boy irony setting in as I find myself sitting on the couch. Anyways, hopefully the job search yields something fruitful. If you have any leads feel free to pass them this way.

peace*

I need a reminder...

Today I need a reminder that I am not here for anything other then to serve a King.

A year and then some...

I can hardly believe that Jake, Nash and I have lived here for over a year. We have never lived anywhere for more then a year, for some reason we always find ourselves in a new adventure when the year mark comes rolling around and then we are off. This year was different, it was a new kind of adventure. We had a child and with that came a whole new world. I believe that we have been truly blessed to have Nash grow and be nurtured in a home filled with so many loving individuals. I wonder if this experience will be something he can recall at a later point in his life, or perhaps it will just be a memory his mom and papa talk about as the 'good old days'?
I am so amazed at all the things I have learned while living within this community. I am grateful for the person that this journey has helped me become. Hopefully I can continue to grow and develop into a character who is living a good story. So now that a year and then some has come and gone, and circumstances have begun to change, we must once again start our next adventure. Start the next part of our story.
To feel at peace with where God has us is so beautiful, that peace may last for a moment, or maybe even a year and who knows it could last a lifetime. For right now I feel that peace, but in my soul that is not the same as being content.
I know that I was created for more.  I can have a better story... now making that story happen is another thing entirely.

just and old photo i love....