who would have guessed...

When i think about my life i am often left in sheer wonder.
How did I get here?
Almost 7 years ago... 7 years that is a heck of a long time ago, i met Jake. Jake would change my life FOREVER. When i started college I never thought about getting married. I never really thought about being in a relationship. I had the idea that I would enjoy liking guys whenever I felt like it or if i got bored. Soon after i declared relationship FREEDOM, I was introduced to Jake. Oh how my life would change.
All of a sudden i found myself staying up late, skipping class and eating endless amount of Wendy's frosty's. Our relationship had grown such depth i found myself lost in its grip.
I was the luckiest girl on earth.
I was in love... Well what i thought was love at the time.
I was infatuated.
over the next four and a half years we had ups and we had downs. We laughed and we cried. We listened and we argued.
We never stopped loving...
We continued to fall in love.
We began to learn what love is, we began treating each other with LOVE. We are learning to die to ourselves so the other may thrive. We are Loving.
Married life is amazing. Married life is not easy and a joy at every passing moment. It can be hard, frustrating and feel disappointing.
We are learning to LOVE in the midst of all those feelings.
I would never trade a single moment that i have shared with Jake.
I am one lucky girl.
I write this now with an addition to our lives growing inside of me.
I am a mother. Jake is a father.
We are a family.
I would have never guessed i would be here.

I am home again. Jake and I arrived home last week and things have been very interesting. It is strange to see so many cars and to once again know traffic as being more then three cars backed up at big batts. People are everywhere! There are pros and cons to the amount of people in the city.
I still have time, i am not working. I find myself, now with the options of stuff to do constantly trying to fill my time. Its hard to sit alone and do nothing. I am sure soon enough i will be yearning for the emptiness of a day.
I am happy to be home yet I miss being where I was.
I can hardly believe that in 8 or so weeks I will be having a baby. It is amazing to feel kicks and movements and to know that God is forming this child in His image. Oh how blessed we are.