Friday, November 13, 2009

When your mind starts to wander...


well i am here in the beauty of our Gods creation. Sitting on a porch, looking at the fall colors and wondering why God has decided to make the death of summer so beautiful? It is easy to say that all death is not as beautiful as the leaves outside your window, but perhaps the death of oneself to the renewal of ones soul is the most beautiful death.
I am in the process of dying.
Having time to sit and think and not be distracted but the normalcy of life has given me new distractions. My mind has been consumed with wandering...
This death that i am enduring, where will it take me? Who will i become?
Will i choose to take my last breath, or struggle for every last moment i have as who i am now?


i must surrender.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

"let your life speak"

"Let your life speak"
One of the books i actually completed of the many i was supposed to during my greaterworks internship. Maybe because it was the shortest or because something about it just interested me more than the others. I have been thinking a lot about it lately. Most of it is a blur, but one point sticks out in my mind.
Parker J. Palmer writes about the theory that when you are first born and into your early, early childhood before the world has any say on who you "should be" you are able to see clearly the character God has created you to have.
When I first read about this idea I was a little unsure. Now that we have Nash it is truly amazing to watch and see beyond a doubt some of the characteristics that God has instilled in him.
He is bashful, and like is father he is also empathetic. His Grandparents have seen a strong will in him and easy going spirit.

It has been interesting to speak to our patents and hear stories about how we were when we were young. I would encourage you to take sometime and ask your folks how you were in your early year.